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Just One of the Guys
Saturday, December 22, 2012 |
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That feeling when you're treated as one of the guys. I'm not exactly tomboy-ish girl nor girly girl either, I think I'm stuck somewhere in between. Yes, I do wear make-up and I get thrilled by cute stuffs. Somehow, almost all of my guy friends treat me as one of them. If they see me carrying heavy stuff or doing some other non-girly things, they'll say 'She can manage it. She's a man.'. Whenever I talk a little softly or act like a girl, they'll start to say 'Oi, what happened to you?! You look like a girl!'. Well, I need to quote what Hermione told Ron but adapted it to suit my situation,
"Just because it’s taken you years to notice, doesn't mean no one else has spotted I'm a girl!"
Yea, I may not act like a girl all the time but I don't need a constant reminder that you lot never see me as a girl. I know they never mean to offend me or whatever and I don't usually take joke seriously. But... no matter how much I don't look like a girl or act like a girl, still, there's a girl inside of me. Words can hurt me too. Remember when you lot said that if I'm able to find someone to marry to, it'll be like a miracle. I laughed it off but those words struck me the most, left me thinking 'Ouch! Am I that bad that I won't be able to find someone?'. Honestly, 'no one sees her as a girl', that probably the last thing a girl ever want to hear from a guy.
You know that feeling, when you are carrying heavy things and it's kinda out of your strength, you're hoping someone will come and lend you a hand, a hand would be enough. But it turns out, no one, those guy friends willingly helping some other girls coz they think you can manage whatever you do. Well, you try your best anyway and act like you're strong enough.
I don't need them to treat me like a fragile little girl, sometimes they just need to remember that I'm still a girl
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A Crazy Little Thing Called Love
Friday, November 23, 2012 |
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It's kinda a funny story on how I discovered this movie. There was this boy in my class... (He's like the little brother in our class coz he is rather not matured in thinking or naive..I think.) Okay, one day, he suddenly came to me, out of nowhere, asking "Have you ever heard of 'Crazy little thing called love'? " At that time, I never heard of it so I told him no. And he just went away after asking. Well, not forget to mention he's kinda weird sometimes. I thought he made that up, so I never had the thought of searching it on the net. Until one day, I was so darn bored, I searched it up. Watched the movie on PPS and Instantly fell in love with it! It was so relatable! LOL! I watched twice actually :P
One of the interesting things that grabbed my attention was the book "9 Recipes of Love". In the movie, it said that if you followed the tricks written in the book, the person will you love will fall in love with you. I couldn't find the complete recipe, only 5 mentioned in the movie. So, here are the tricks I found over the internet.
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Recipe 1 – A Greek Belief
Go to a place where you can see many stars in the sky, Then use your fingers to draw lines connecting the stars as the abbriviation of your man.
Recipe 2 – Old Method from the Mayan Tribe
We have to concentrate our mind then look at our beloved. Try to control his mind and tell him to do things we want him to do. If he follows our command, it means that he is our soul mate.
Recipe 3 – From Scotland
Secretly bring him things that have a meaning from the heart to him. He must not know who gave the gift to him so the target is that he will know that there is somebody who is interested in him.
*I don’t think they mentioned recipe 4, 5, and 6
Recipe 7 – From the Gypsies
The love must build up itself. Use the power of love to make us smarter, more beautiful and better in every way. He will look back at us finally.
*I also don’t think they talked about recipe 8
Recipe 9
If you want to do because of love do it all-out with your heart. Your beloved will come to you finally.
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I dunno where that 10th Recipe came from.
“This book is so funny, but it makes me know how much you have tried” - P’Shone
To be honest, I found myself trying the Recipe 2 and funny thing it actually worked! LOL! Maybe it was just a stroke of luck. Sometimes, you just need a little bit of faith and believe that miracle can happen.
Recipe 1 – A Greek Belief
Go to a place where you can see many stars in the sky, Then use your fingers to draw lines connecting the stars as the abbriviation of your man.
Recipe 2 – Old Method from the Mayan Tribe
We have to concentrate our mind then look at our beloved. Try to control his mind and tell him to do things we want him to do. If he follows our command, it means that he is our soul mate.
Recipe 3 – From Scotland
Secretly bring him things that have a meaning from the heart to him. He must not know who gave the gift to him so the target is that he will know that there is somebody who is interested in him.
*I don’t think they mentioned recipe 4, 5, and 6
Recipe 7 – From the Gypsies
The love must build up itself. Use the power of love to make us smarter, more beautiful and better in every way. He will look back at us finally.
*I also don’t think they talked about recipe 8
Recipe 9
If you want to do because of love do it all-out with your heart. Your beloved will come to you finally.
The Last
Tuesday, November 20, 2012 |
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Came across this video on Youtube. It's a heartfelt video on love. It all started with a simple question: "How many were there before me?". I didn't expect his answer to be like that. I thought that he was gonna say out some random girls' names. It teaches us that each person that crossed our path shaped us for who we are now. The saddest part in our life is not the heartbreak but the fact that we never really have the chance to fall in love. I wish to meet a guy who will see me as his Who, What, When, Where and Why :)
One of the greatest gifts we have of being alive is the ability to give, receive and even lose love.
What a waste if we don't strive to love in our lives. Why wastes love not loving?
Labels: Love
I Am Single?!
Tuesday, November 20, 2012 |
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I can honestly tell you that, I'm 19 and never had a boyfriend. I have plenty of male friends but boyfriend, no. To be honest, yes, I had plenty of crushes over the past few years. I didn't have the courage to take a step forward. So, yeah, nothing happened. LOL! Everytime I meet someone new, they can't believe if I tell them that I never had boyfriend. They will go "Are you kidding? There must be someone, right?". Well, sorry to disappoint you, no.
I don't wanna rush into any relationship because relationship requires responsibilities and commitments. Relationships look sweet when they're afresh and new,as the time goes by all those things will fade and all there's left is how you going to love the person for the rest of your life despite all their flaws. It's easier for people to break up if they lose interest in the other person. But for me, to love somebody. it is either give your all or don't give at all. You try to hold on no matter how hard the situations are, because you love the person for who the person is not how the circumstances are. I won't want to go running around telling people I love them just because I am lonely. It's better to be lonely than to breaks someone's heart. You never know, maybe it is the only thing they have.
I would be lying if I say I don't feel anything whenever I see couples doing sweet things together. Seeing them together, sometimes I wonder when can I have my chance. I even questioned God why He is withholding relationship in my life. His gave me an answer, in fact countless times, always same answer: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.". That answer was kinda hard to swallow. I dunno what His plans in my life but I will trust in Him. His plans are perfect, when I look back on my life, I realized He was preparing something more wonderful when He was withholding something from me.
If someone tell me that they are interested in me and I have no interest in them. I will tell them straight away that I have no interest rather than flirt with them. Short pain is better than long pain. If you don't tell them straight away, they'll fall deeper and deeper and it really dang hurts once they know the truth. You can play with anything but someone's heart. I don't like players. If you have many admirers, that's fine. But if you think having all those people fell for you is like giving you permission to play their hearts, that's not fine. Boys who try to impress girls by showing off how many girls they have, it's a big turn off.
If the person I like likes me and he considers to be with me, I will want him to think about it again. Is he really loves me or just finding a way to heal his loneliness syndrome. If he is sure about his feeling and I am sure about mine. Well, there is no wrong to be together! If I have a boyfriend, I'll definitely set some boundaries with male friends. (Because sometimes I get pretty close with my male friends) Spare wheel is a big no no. If I love somebody, I want to love him with my whole heart and half of my heart.
I don't desire to have many admirers, I just want someone to care me with his whole heart and willing to tolerate my flaws. I want someone who I can share everything with, my happiness, my sorrows, my thoughts and all. It's not that we won't fight, we sometimes fight, but in the end we realize that each other's company is far more important that arguing who is right. He need not to be perfect but just perfect for me, like a sponge that absorbs all my shortcomings. He doesn't have to be handsome, I am not pretty either, he is good-looking to me and I am beautiful to him, that's enough. What I want is simple, I am his and he is mine.
Labels: Love
Red
Tuesday, November 13, 2012 |
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I like Taylor because of her songs, she sings what girls wanna say. I was excited when her newest album , Red, was released, I went straight to listen to the preview of the album on iTunes. To be honest, I was kinda disappointed. Don't get me wrong, it's not about the battle between pop and country. It's just the feeling, the feeling I usually get when I listen to her songs. I can't really describe the feeling, it's kinda feeling of understanding in her songs. I like most of her songs in her previous albums, but this one, I only like a few songs. The few songs that actually caught my heart are Starlight, I almost do, Treacherous and Come back...be here.
Starlight
I Almost Do
Treacherous
Come Back...Be Here
Starlight
Labels: Feelings, Songs, Taylor Swift
Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live
Monday, November 12, 2012 |
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Everyone who knows me, or specifically everyone I feel close to, knows that I was once hit by a bus. Well, it was not really serious, in fact it could be called a miracle. That accident somehow affected my life. After that, I have this fear of crossing the road. Every time when I cross a busy road, I will start thinking that the cars will hit me and I will freeze at the side of the road for minutes. Even though it happened four years ago, but it still flashes in my mind once in a while.
Only when I read "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom, I suddenly realized that it happened for a reason.
I really love a quote from the book:
“The truth is, once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”
Once you tasted death, then you know what really important in your life. In that few seconds of impact, things that matter flashed in my mind. Not money, not status, not study... But rather, the things that came to my mind are God, my family and also the meaningful things that I ever did. As soon as the bus hit me, I remember praying to the Lord, "Oh Lord! Am I dying? Am I going to die just like this? I have nothing to bring back to you. Please don't let me die."
When you are facing death, your money, your house, your car, your status cannot save you and they do not matter anymore because you are leaving them anyway. The things that really matter is how much love you leave behind. In the end, like a quote in Tuesdays with Morrie: "Love wins. Love always wins". I really want to make a change in someone's life, I want to do something meaningful in my life. It doesn't matter whether it is small or big, all I wanna do is to spread some love.
p/s: For those who haven't read the book, you should spend some time reading it :)
To the Beautiful You!
Wednesday, November 07, 2012 |
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To: The Beautiful You
I love you, I love you, I love you
Even if I say it a thousand times, it’s not enough
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
Every moment, I miss you more
I call you and call you and call you
Your face keeps rising up
If I hope and hope and hope
Will you know how I feel someday?
You're the only one who doesn't know that it's me
The person who will only love you is me
In this world where I met you
It's like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you
The person who can protect you is me
It’s me who only looks at you by your side
A foolish me
If I draw out your face before sleeping
Will I meet you in my dreams?
If I want you and want you and want you
Will you know how I feel someday?
You're the only one who doesn't know that it's me
The person who will only love you is me
In this world where I met you
It's like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you
The person who can protect you is me
It’s me who only looks at you by your side
I'm telling you my heart
I'm only telling you
The person who loves only you
That's me, it’s me
This love story is only to be told to you
A story about how she loved only one person
It's just me who keeps this love that no one knows about to myself
I’m singing this love song only for you
A song that can be heard only by you
I will always be by your side
It's me who will only sing you
This love song
*****
There are so many things I couldn’t say
You have never heard them before but
I’m not someone who just loves anyone I see
Because among the many people in this world
I could only see you
I am standing here as I only see you
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Just like child who is always this way,
Will you warmly hold me right now?
Though someday your name might become strange
My heart will remember all the memories
Even if a painful separation comes between us
Let’s not think about that today
Because among the many people in this world
I could only see you
I am standing here as I only see you
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Just like child who is always this way,
Will you warmly hold me closer?
Now I’m not alone
Only you who has come to me from that place-
Only you are my everything
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Just like child who is always this way,
Will you warmly hold me closer?
Closer
Warmer
Will you hold me?
*****
I couldn’t bear to say that I like you
Just being by your side like this was good enough
Yes, should I muster up some courage one more time?
Should I tell you how I feel?
You don’t even know my heart and you just smile brightly
I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I’m calling you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you
I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you
Like this
Shyly, I hide my fluttering heart
And I met you again today
I worry that my heart will be noticed
So I turn around
I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I’m calling you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you
I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you
I still need you, I still you
Nothing can replace you
Cuz I love you – wait for me
I will tell you my heart
I’m telling you that I’m looking for you
I’m telling you that I want to have you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you
I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you
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From: Not-so-ugly Me :P
